Astrid intensifies.thinking about what was going to happen - what the consequences of my failure would be-
Though this is the peak of it, I think. The failure-specific beats fade more into a general sense self loathing and shame from here on out.Oh, honey, no...
Well, quickly crescendo and then lead to a sense of resolve is type of fading?I was so goddamn tired of failure, so fucking done with treading water and hoping for the best.
Mood, tho. I have this thought every few weeks. Doesn't actually lead to much in the way of changes, but that's depression and poor executive function for you.
Oh. Oh, wow. Yikes, Carmin. But yeah.looked strong - strong enough to easily overpower me- confident
Pfft. She knows our pain!
This is a nice beat, like, losing control but quicker to get it back. Problem isn't magically solved, but she's starting to get a hang.This time I managed to stop the spikes before they grew more than a few feet tall.
Same, which speaks to the writing. Playback and Hard Reset are one of those "seemingly unlikely until you get to know them" duos that are very fun to watch together.I got the impression this was a conversation they’d had many times.
Hahaha. This got a chuckle out of me, too. Had I not read a draft of this prior, I would still be confused about the diminutive now as I was then. It's just not one I'm familiar with, and would require a Google encountered in the wild.I forced a grin onto my face. If it looked a little sickly neither of them saw fit to comment. “Nope, all of that stuff was past Carmin. I’m present Carmin. Therefore, I take no responsibility.”
Carmin has a fun sense of humor, when she's not drowning in self hatred or mortal terror.“Sounds like solid logic to me.” Hard Reset piped in. Well, tuba-ed in anyway. He had a pretty deep voice.
And Hard Reset is an unexpected delight.“That’s wrong.” Hard Reset snapped, making it a judgement. His jaw looked carved from stone as he said, “I can kick ‘em back in time too.”
Enhanced senses != enhanced reflexes. Noted.My hand was already in place to catch it as the coin reached its apex, right up until it landed and everything went wrong.
Jeez, this guy is a perceptive fellow. Almost like he's an extremely competent professional or something.
Oof. See, this is where having a faith to fall back on seems attractive (though I don't, just speaking as an outsider). Like, for example, depending on tradition, you can take comfort from the fact that you were ruined before you were ever born! So this event just didn't unruin you, like... 99% of everything else that happens to you.
I really like the sculpting sequence. And that it's raw, lacking in finesse and polish because duh, it's not the power of "overnight artist".visualizing the finished product with my thinker power and patiently iterating until the stone in front of me broadly matched what I’d had in mind
Nah, total freakin' coincidence.I paused, but eventually nodded. It really had helped to get some of my feelings out there. Was that what he’d been intending?

These two are bound to be fast friends one day. Or like, maybe HR is the unlikely mentor figure? Since Snap is the celebrity crush and would be more awkward in that role.Hard Reset chuckled at my weak attempt at humor, for which I awarded him twelve Carmin points.
Or am I misreading, and the script is flipped? Tell me, oh tell me, where to point my ships!
Which, yeah, we get bits of early on, but for everyone who was all "grr, she's a shitty person" in chapter one - FACE!There was always more stuff that was somehow my responsibility to deal with right now or I’d be a terrible roommate.
Lying to yourself is the first step to meeting your development goals. One more lift, one more block, 100 more words. You can never actually rest, but you need some way to push through in the moment.Come on Carmin, Some part of me thought, Just a little further, you can do this. Then you can rest, for real this time.
Ooooooffff. This isn't the stuff of nightmares or anything.What I didn’t add was that before I’d left, I’d started being able to sense the body with my power. And I never forgot anything I sensed with my power. Not that I wanted to, really. I didn’t deserve to.
I was seriously googling facial expression directories until...“I’m sorry,” Playback said, turning off the recording device. He curled his lips down in a way I didn’t recognize. “You didn’t deserve any of this.”
Oooh, now isn't that a fun twist. Deeply comforting hyperrational headspace comes at the price of empathy. Can't see that rearing it's ugly head again in the future.
It's always the little things, in the end, isn't it?Hard Reset snorted, giving me a small smile. “Smart girl.” Despite everything, I felt a small thrill at being gendered correctly.
And this is just plain regular, calmed down, as close to normal as we have seen her so far Carmin. Hey there, nice to meet ya!“Alright, I’m willing to hear you out. But I’ll wanna see some statistics.”
I'm always surprised how few people ask this. I'm maxing the dental on day one yo.
Pfft. Propriety will see us though, when civilization falls apart!
Heh. As an HR adjacent professional, I was wondering if they'd abbreviate this way, and already spinning up the relevant jokes.the call came in I felt that HR and I had relevant skill sets for the situation.
Surely nothing that will become plot relevant in an arc or so.I was curious about what could have possibly been happening here that was worthy of his time,
RIP, John. Gone but never, ever, forgotten no matter how much Carmin may eventually want to.“His name was John Powell. He was studying to be an environmental biologist, and from what I can tell he was a kind person loved by his friends.
Yes!
ompoms: Seriously nice to see, after all that, a little momentary win for our girl.Yes, but you're a fun(yun) hating monster. ;P Being totally right a lot of the time doesn't make your opinions any less suspect.Simply put getting powers is supposed to hurt, and I think Carmilla here is genuinely hurt.
Ye. Tho we have three chapters covering the events of a few hours, it hasn't dragged. Gotta wait and see what the pacing is like longer term tho.I think interspacing it with flashbacks and her thoughts did a great job of doing that.
TBH, so did I, and it makes sense that Carmin might too, given all that's happened.To be entirely honest, I kind of forgot about it while rewriting. I'll add a line or two somewhere.
This resolves it neatly and is another me point for Playback.“Oh right,” he said, turning my way. “And I’ll make sure to get your laptop back.”
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And from here on I haven't been spoiled at all. Second star to the right, and straight on til morning!

